[What he means is that these are emotions that he's been trying to lock away, to keep away in the past. That looking back at them made him regret his position-and he couldn't regret something he couldn't change, he had to stay strong, for everyone. To come back to his feelings of guilt in such a jolting and unexpected manner is...overwhelming. But with him not getting all the words out, it can be interpreted quite differently...]>
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[He looks away.]
>...It's...hard...to...
[What he means is that these are emotions that he's been trying to lock away, to keep away in the past. That looking back at them made him regret his position-and he couldn't regret something he couldn't change, he had to stay strong, for everyone. To come back to his feelings of guilt in such a jolting and unexpected manner is...overwhelming. But with him not getting all the words out, it can be interpreted quite differently...]