It always cuts Rick to the core whenever he sees Bolger in one of his fits. He doesn't understand why, really, just only that it's because his boss is supposed to be strong and fierce, like he is in his negotiations. It's hard to think that whatever he is in the outside world is just a front.
And part of Rick actually feels a little triumphant. This way, he's of use. Instead of just meekly standing behind him and holding his files, chiming in, he's here lending support. Emotional support. Whether it's stroking his hair as Bolger vomits into a toilet during the last of his hangover, or just sitting on the edge of his bed and murmuring nonsense words to get him to sleep so that he stops being emotionally drunk...or even threatening to lockdown that entire shelf of fine wines that he knows is there for more than just show...he gets to mother him. See him and comfort him in his darkest moments so he can stand strong again.
And yet there's a current of something else in his mothering. Something determined, more fierce than his usual self.
Because he knows that there's someone, or something, that made Bolger like this before. Someone that did this before him. And they left their mark. Something that Rick won't be able to smooth over or heal or replace. And it's infuriating, in a way.
But in the end, it's just one more thing to encourage him to redouble his efforts, to try. Because it's all he can do.
Because he wants to, and trying to make Bolger see that he's not looking for any benefit out of it is part of the challenge.
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It always cuts Rick to the core whenever he sees Bolger in one of his fits. He doesn't understand why, really, just only that it's because his boss is supposed to be strong and fierce, like he is in his negotiations. It's hard to think that whatever he is in the outside world is just a front.
And part of Rick actually feels a little triumphant. This way, he's of use. Instead of just meekly standing behind him and holding his files, chiming in, he's here lending support. Emotional support. Whether it's stroking his hair as Bolger vomits into a toilet during the last of his hangover, or just sitting on the edge of his bed and murmuring nonsense words to get him to sleep so that he stops being emotionally drunk...or even threatening to lockdown that entire shelf of fine wines that he knows is there for more than just show...he gets to mother him. See him and comfort him in his darkest moments so he can stand strong again.
And yet there's a current of something else in his mothering. Something determined, more fierce than his usual self.
Because he knows that there's someone, or something, that made Bolger like this before. Someone that did this before him. And they left their mark. Something that Rick won't be able to smooth over or heal or replace. And it's infuriating, in a way.
But in the end, it's just one more thing to encourage him to redouble his efforts, to try. Because it's all he can do.
Because he wants to, and trying to make Bolger see that he's not looking for any benefit out of it is part of the challenge.